Inner Conflict

I was trying to clear up some space today as my room is in a big mess. I kind of like to have a clean and tidy room but am not the type who really put in effort to maintaining it. I only do so when I really cannot stand myself living in my room. But that is not the main point.

I found my old report books underneath the junks and as I flipped through it I found a certain pattern in them. When I was in primary school, teachers always put an excellent in conduct and write things like show brilliance in studies. Then as I moved on to secondary, the conduct remains the same but the comment on my studies becomes need concentration. And checking the junior college comments, lacking concentration seems to be my biggest problem now.

I tried to concentrate and I know these advices as I often gives them to others, but it is just that some point in time there is just too much for me to handle. I used to sit for 3 to 4 hours just doing math and nothing else. Now, even an hour at it nearly drives me nuts. Maybe this is one of the after effects of technology. i am now having shorter attention span and I kind of wish I do not. Ah so little time left liao. Brain please let me concentrate.................ahahahaha.......................