Never Had a Dream Come True

I had never really gave much attention to the lyrics of the songs that I heard, but today when I heard this song, I found that it actually truly represents my feeling at this point of time. It resonated with my feelings and created a harmonious feeling in my heart. Haha. It just felt right to listen to it. Here are the lyrics, and hope that you will like it.

Ooh...

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
How it could be now or neither been (or neither been)
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus
I never had a dream come true
Till that day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time
Amd tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or neither been (or neither been)
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
(Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby)
You'll always be the one I know (I'll never forget)
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

Chorus

A part of me will always be with you...

Must ask others if don know!!!

Just watched a funny video...teach us a moral...if we do not know, must go ask...

Breakfast Calmness

Woke up today and found myself to be in a really good mood. Nice weather, nice atmosphere, and there is this calmness in the air. It really makes me want to break into a song. Haha. Hope today will be a good day for me and all my friends. Here is my breakfast for the day:

What a nice feeling in the morning. So calm....

Where do I go from here?

Today, a conversation with Claron made me realised that actually I had lost my sense of direction in life. I actually am not sure where I want to go to, what course to study, and why do I study.

Maybe its fear for my future. Though I like to design things, I fear the prospect of being unemployed. What if my choice turns out to be not what I had wanted? What if I found out that what I really want is not design but something else? All of this what ifs seems to be leading me to nowhere.

I am usually a optimistic person, those who know me will know. I do not cry or get upset but I somehow have the characteristic of Pisces, that of being lost. I hate this feeling that I am in nowhere.

Maybe fate has something for me. Maybe design is the way. Haha. I am not too sure yet. But after pondering for the whole afternoon, I seem to be able to see a direction. Maybe it is me who is the deciding factor of my success, the job haha, is just a complement to my life.

Maybe I will be a freelance designer, maybe I will be a entrepreneur, and maybe I will be selling my designs. Haha. I do not know. But design here I come.

So Sad Today...

Today, as usual, I was on my way home from school. I turned around to find her standing across the street. She is ever so beautiful to me, and my chest starts to pull. (not heart attack) My mind is filled with questions for her, "How have you been?", "Which university you chose?", "Do you have a boyfriend?", and "How about me?". These questions started to fill and I found it hard to catch my breath.

Maybe I will be like the story below and found out in the end that she loves me as much, and live the rest of my life in regret.

Maybe I don't even have the chance to do so, as she do not even know my name. We are just people on the same bus.

But I still remember that morning. A morning where she touched me. (no, not molest) It was the same as usual, I overslept and was 20 minutes away to being late. It was to be my fourth and I frantically started to look for a cab. Guess what, none came. I just waited, waited, and waited for an empty cab. Each cab passes by with no sign of being empty, but then, one special one went passed me, stopped, and horn for me. I went into the cab and she was in it. This is a girl that I gaze at every morning on bus 64, and woke up specially just to be on time to meet her. Now same cab, this is wilder than my dreams. Haha, but I am usually damn stiff around those I liked, I pretended to be interested in my textbook, but I felt so happy. The only thing I said to her was my mum gavve me some money to pay for the trip how about letting me pay. In my mind i was like "my mum gave me, hello mummy's boy". But she declined and offer to split. And guess what dumb thing I did, i said OK. Then, every morning I still take the same bus but we both smile at each other and it felt like the whole world had stopped. But I found that I was going to retain that year, haha, and I started to ignore her. And guess what, we are both strangers now.

Maybe I should had been more active.
Maybe I should have tried.
Maybe if I am not so stupid,
Maybe then she'll be mine.
Haha. All the maybe but never tried. All the sadness that are only mine.

Just hope I will see her again.